UNBELIEVABLE. . .

21.11.19
Midnight. . .

the night that i never thought to happen, happened.

lately,
I'm having a dilemma...

after prayer,
i always prayed that,
May Allah show me the right path..
May Allah guide me to the right decision.

it was because, i don't wanna be a selfish.
i just want to make a fair decision to everybody who got involved.

it's freaking pain,

like, seriously.

but, i have to sacrifice it.
May Allah grant me such a beautiful blessing in future, inshaAllah...

Hisni did approached me.
she asked me everything...

i told her everything. .
without fail.
with a heavy heart.

i'm grateful that Allah had answered my prayer.
i'm touched that He accept my doa & i got His guidance.

then, i truly learnt that. . .
not all the one that we love, will be ours..

let them free & fly freedomly..
if he meant to be mine, he'll be...
if not,
i believe that, Allah will replace him with a better person...


ya Allah,
thank you for lending him to me even for a while..
thank you for the chance.

help me to move on
and set up a new version of me again.
close the heart of mine & open it back when the right time has arrive.
amiin..

love you, Zakwan
thank you for everything.
i'm truly appreciate
and
i'm truly sorry for everything that i've done & i'll do