HOPE . . .

2020 is coming very soon...

i lost somebody in early of 2019
i met another soul nearby the end of the 2019,
to be specific around july, 2019.

as you know,
at the very beginning, we were completely a friend.
as the days goes by, the bond is getting extremely closer. . .

day by day, we passed our days almost together. .
we did everything all together . .
almost. . .

i admit that,
whatever i tried to do something to him,
i always believe,
May in the future, there have somebody will do the same towards me
with all of his heart.

all the goods that i gave,
May i receive it back in my future.
with the right person.

ya Allah, i knew that my meeting with him is not coincidently.
all is well-planned by YOU.
ya Allah, i asked for the strength for me to go through all of this pain, all the obstacles that you gave me.
You'll not put me in this if this is beyond my ability
ya Allah, if he not meant to be mine,
i'm begging you, please let my 2020 will be the painless year ever.
as you know, i am on my way to get back my very ownself.
i love my life that you give me.
but, suddenly you put him in my life,
that was such a test for me.
i'll probably lost myself again if everything continue this way..

ya Allah... i need extra strength for myself.

thank you for lending him in mylife. . .
amiin