T_T. . .
on the 30th of Dec 2019,
on the pages of 364 of 2019,
we went out for movie.
we watched IP MAN 4 : the finale.
hall 1,
twin seat, A01 A02.
i spent the whole day with him.
i fetched him at KTM station at 10.33a.m
then, we went to Aman Central.
we had our breakfast at warung behind Aman Central.
the place that i used to buy my breakfast during my part-time work before.
our movie show at 1.00pm
we hang out for hours until the clock turned 1.00pm.
in the cinema,
i never feel the loving moment just like hat had happened i there.
we were cuddled to each other since the beginning of the movie till the end.
he held me tightly.
i could feel the warmness of him.
extremely comfortable.
i love that moment.
so so bad.
i'm in love ... T_T
from time to time,
he kept hold my hand.
he played with all of my fingers.
he bite each of my finger pamperedly.
he hugged me so tight.
he kissed every part of my head.
cheeks & neck , not to forget . . .
sometimes, my hand . . he did kissed it too . .
i know , it's wrong..
that's why i'm writting it here,. . .
i don't know.. .
to whom i would like to express this feeling. .
i feel embarrassed to the One.
but, it's Nafs.
i admit that i just can't help myself out of it.
i'm sorry T_T
i leaned my head on his chest/shoulder while hugging him too.
i also rubbed his body part that i put my hands on while cuddling softly.
while, on the other hand
i rubbed his neck, face, lips, ears ,hair gently...
sometimes, i kissed his cheek .
repeatedly . .
i love his smells
then, we changed the position.
he put his hand over my shoulder,
indirectly i was in his arms.
he played with my tummy,
my hand's fat .
he squeezes it.
still, he keep kissed every part of my head,
sometimes goes to cheek and neck.
while watching the movie. . .
the nauthiest was
we did M2M kissed,
but i keep avoided it.
so , it didn't go deeply.
but still, it happened T_T . .
i'm so in love.
whenever i recalled what had happened,
i could feel the butterfly in my stomach.
i admit,
i love him.
the feelings already went to something that wrong.
but i wish i didn't lose him..
but, whatever gonna happened,
i will redha. .
sebab, aku yang tak kawal T_T
such a memorable day.
before i ended the year.
i experienced something new.
it gave me lessons for future.
i wish that was the last person before i get married.
ya Allah, ampunni kami T_T
if he is meant for me,
permudahkan urusankami untuk menghalalkan hubungan ini.
kami tak kuat T_T
kami ada ibu bapa yang tinggi harapan mereka untuk kami.
kawallah nafsu kami T_T . . .
ammiinn..
on the pages of 364 of 2019,
we went out for movie.
we watched IP MAN 4 : the finale.
hall 1,
twin seat, A01 A02.
i spent the whole day with him.
i fetched him at KTM station at 10.33a.m
then, we went to Aman Central.
we had our breakfast at warung behind Aman Central.
the place that i used to buy my breakfast during my part-time work before.
our movie show at 1.00pm
we hang out for hours until the clock turned 1.00pm.
in the cinema,
i never feel the loving moment just like hat had happened i there.
we were cuddled to each other since the beginning of the movie till the end.
he held me tightly.
i could feel the warmness of him.
extremely comfortable.
i love that moment.
so so bad.
i'm in love ... T_T
from time to time,
he kept hold my hand.
he played with all of my fingers.
he bite each of my finger pamperedly.
he hugged me so tight.
he kissed every part of my head.
cheeks & neck , not to forget . . .
sometimes, my hand . . he did kissed it too . .
i know , it's wrong..
that's why i'm writting it here,. . .
i don't know.. .
to whom i would like to express this feeling. .
i feel embarrassed to the One.
but, it's Nafs.
i admit that i just can't help myself out of it.
i'm sorry T_T
i leaned my head on his chest/shoulder while hugging him too.
i also rubbed his body part that i put my hands on while cuddling softly.
while, on the other hand
i rubbed his neck, face, lips, ears ,hair gently...
sometimes, i kissed his cheek .
repeatedly . .
i love his smells
then, we changed the position.
he put his hand over my shoulder,
indirectly i was in his arms.
he played with my tummy,
my hand's fat .
he squeezes it.
still, he keep kissed every part of my head,
sometimes goes to cheek and neck.
while watching the movie. . .
the nauthiest was
we did M2M kissed,
but i keep avoided it.
so , it didn't go deeply.
but still, it happened T_T . .
i'm so in love.
whenever i recalled what had happened,
i could feel the butterfly in my stomach.
i admit,
i love him.
the feelings already went to something that wrong.
but i wish i didn't lose him..
but, whatever gonna happened,
i will redha. .
sebab, aku yang tak kawal T_T
such a memorable day.
before i ended the year.
i experienced something new.
it gave me lessons for future.
i wish that was the last person before i get married.
ya Allah, ampunni kami T_T
if he is meant for me,
permudahkan urusankami untuk menghalalkan hubungan ini.
kami tak kuat T_T
kami ada ibu bapa yang tinggi harapan mereka untuk kami.
kawallah nafsu kami T_T . . .
ammiinn..
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