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why ... when everything 'back' as before ... i became nearly like before me.. but, there's slightly difference when i am more aware with my action than before... since i'm broke last night... mujur hari ini hari cuti... i lost my mood .. ya Allah...help me help me to go through all this.. guide me in study...make sure, i'm not lost from my study... i tried to distance myself from him... since woke up late for today ... i think it will take sometime for everything fall back into it places... i don't know why, tuhan bagaikan minta aku 'hang-on' dari membuat keputusan yang melulu pada hari ini... mungkin, sepedih-pedih hati aku mengharunginya... pedih lagi jiwa eseorang ang memerlukan bahu sekiranya aku terus pergi.. mungkin itu lebih penting ? itu kmbali rujuk kpad definisi masing-masing jua.. dalam kekecewa aku tengah menahan.. malam tadi, sempat call.. still, he still needs his bestfriend to comfort him before sleep.. even,...

the feeling when you could become a listener at first was kinda awesome & great. like, extremely, great. since day 1, when u looked at somebody that you kinda 'like' ypu could started to feel something. but, those something, you can't express it into words. indescriable but, Allah is Almighty He knows well.. He crossed the path of 2 persons for reasons.. i never imagined to get close with the one that when the 1st sight, i looked at him.. i have something.. i thought it was just for fun since i'm very cheeky.. when i turned 'back'.. i just could smile with speechlessly...😊 well... pada mulanya, sebelum keakraban itu tiba... aku cuma berfikir, 'oh, mungkin kali ini sahaja' jadi, aku cuba... akan tetapi, aku tewas dengan penghargaan yang beliau berikan... hari demi hari , keakraban itu kian utuh teguh beliau seolah memberikan sesuatu.. aku hampir lupa, beliau mempunyai seorang teman yakni bkan teman wanita bak sang kek...

gimme the higher strenght for me ya Allah... i'm confused... do take all these feeing back ya Allah...

I believe in your fate, Ya Allah.. gimme some strength go to through all of this... am i able to finish it ? 😢

Lemme introduce them to this blog, my second family. "you won't appreciate the moment, until it becomes a memory"  the moment that i miss the most is schooltime, school friends & school family i love them to the fullest Thank you guys for amazing 2 years. semoga kalian berjaya, bahagia dunia akhirat 💝 chemistry experiment (giant toothpaste ) PRU's night. we're having barbeque at Atong's house last raya together in school  our last formal class photo outdoor graduation day's photo indoor graduation day's photo our last BI class our last BM class our last physics class and last class during spm

A loner as same as me. i fall for him. a senior that extremely nerd. kind-hearted person. got a lot of chemistry between us. today, we go for a jog together. suddenly, i fell down & my knee got wound. that 'feeling' comes, even worst ya Allah, if he is not meant for me please take this feeling back from my heart.. i just want to be happy, i don't want to attach with those sadness that makes me become an ungrateful person. Z 

kadangkala rasa kejam... kadangkala rasa benar... adakah salah sekiranya merasakan diri ini betul ? i love to set myself alone... bagi aku, ia amat menenangkan.. hal ini kerana, selepas apa yang pernah berlaku.. aku cukup serik untuk memulakan sesuatu yang baru... aku takut untuk berkenalan rapat dengan seseorang...yang baru.... perbuatan ini salah kah ? __________________________________________________________________________ almost 2 months, i'm in matrics... i'm afraid to put my trust on humans.. like even now, dah beberapa bulan sekali, kadang TER-rasa menyesal menjadi rapat dengan beberapa individu.. ia membuatkan ku berkata pada diri "betul, aku tak patut memulakan apa-apa..i'm better be alone" tapi, that moment aku berkata itu, aku rasa aku berdosa... aku lupa yang takdir tuhan itu lebih baik "Allah temukan kita dengan sesuatu ada hikmahnya" tiada lain yang dapat memujuk diri ini dengan bersangka baik dengan tuha...