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my little joy is, when i looked at the people that i love and they're happy with their life... amat menenangkan ...

Allah sent him for reasons. Allah took him back also for reasons. how short Allah pinjamkan dia.. mungkin, that time Allah didn't want me to feel so lonely.. so, Allah sent him.. he is such a funny guy, friendly, simple, easy to make friend.. at the same point, Allah took for a while all my friends.. but now, Allah give back them for me.. maybe for prep to further study ?  and... Allah took him back.. Alhamdulillah...glad to know him.. well, everything started a few weeks after i broke up.. we did DM-ing on IG.  i did start the conversation.. i approached him just because of he pet the unique pets... otter, squirrel..blabla kebetulan, i broke up with my ex ON THE SAME DATE with him.  he also broke up on the same date with me.. which was 3.1.19... fast foward, we're getting closer. we did exchanged a lot of interest together, he always be there with me through my ups & downs that's really made me felt comfort...

i felt like i would like to make an appreciation post about this super awesome teacher. he was the one who always put the trust on me. he was the one who select me as school's emcee. he was the one who most i indebted with. he knew almost everything about me. i mean my personal problem and so on. about my studies, family, even love tho 💁 jarang kan student share masalah cinta dengan cikgu ? actually, 'masalah' cinta tu tak la.. just when i wan in relationship before, he alwayssss adviced me to make sure i am be careful with lafff.. i mean like, he cared just to make sure aku tak tersasar jauh... dia tahulah aku ada hubungan and so on..so dia pantau dari jauh.. lepas break pun, i told him that i already broke up. hahaha.. i just prayed May Allah grant him happiness in this world and hereafter. terima kasih cikgu. cikgu azmin .

may everything goes well .. inshaAllah...

you'll meet so many kind of human... you'll go through so many phase of life... you'll learn so many things more in the future... from that, it could make yourself either become a better person or nah... for sure, it could make you to become a new you... just wanna let you know that, not all the people who walk into our lives will stay... either they are love , friend or else... nope, they're not. but, just for a temporary.. what they left for forever are lessons. every human who came into your life, brings something for you.. to use in your future.. which is LESSON... either good or bad.. so, the moral is.. dont ever put the hopes on human. it will break you one day... just be good to everyone... because kindness with always be remembered.. and appreciate their deeds toward us.. spread love. 

I've made my decision.. Ya Allah, please... izinkan apa yang aku terniat di hati.. untuk kebaikkan semua, inshaAllah... izinkan ya Allah.. bismillah.. aku gayat, dengan kelakuanku.. aku yakin dengan aturanMu.. Sesunggunnya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui apa yang kami tidak... aku ingin melihat rakan-rakanku bahagia... <3 sesungguhnya engka telah mepersiapkan kebahagiaanku jua untuk suatu masa nanti...

after broke up, ada seorag hamba Allah ni..datang munculkan diri dia.. he's too kind . he always be there for me. during my ups & downs laugh and tears. he did made the jokes about his feeling towards me. he was crush on meh 👀 both of us baru break up. both hati tengah barai. a few months berlalu,  'that' feeling appear. not reach at the level of love yet. untuk di jadikan cerita, we got something yang macam boleh masuk lah. so that's why rapat. i wish that he could come again in the future, but please not today. our condition quite not stable.. kadang okay, kadang tak. sebab yah, dah rapat ni..perangai khinzir masing-masing memang keluar. semoga keakraban itu terus menerus. because of rapat, now, even tho sehari tak contact.. rasa hilang.. boleh rasa yang hilang kawan ni lagi pedih dari break up. yes, my past was extremely hurt. but, that piggy came with blooms. tiba-tiba zasss hilang . rasa maca...