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21.11.19 Midnight. . . the night that i never thought to happen, happened. lately, I'm having a dilemma... after prayer, i always prayed that, May Allah show me the right path.. May Allah guide me to the right decision. it was because, i don't wanna be a selfish. i just want to make a fair decision to everybody who got involved. it's freaking pain, like, seriously. but, i have to sacrifice it. May Allah grant me such a beautiful blessing in future, inshaAllah... Hisni did approached me. she asked me everything... i told her everything. . without fail. with a heavy heart. i'm grateful that Allah had answered my prayer. i'm touched that He accept my doa & i got His guidance. then, i truly learnt that. . . not all the one that we love, will be ours.. let them free & fly freedomly.. if he meant to be mine, he'll be... if not, i believe that, Allah will replace him with a better person... ya Allah, thank you for len...

day by day, everything went well.. lie if there's no downs at all.. life is full of, ups & downs, twists & turns, love & loss, tears & laughter... me & him. . we stay like that. . . may it has a beautiful endings... ya Allah, take care of my heart amin 

3 . 8 . 19 malam. KmK ada buat talk like that. not compulsory to all.. besides, adala foodtrucks ni just to menarik pengunjung maybe ? tapi, failed. orang gi makan ja sepah.. that's not what i want to share.. HE SCOLDED ME . terasa sampai tulang. tapi, i knew where my place it so.... diam je... my bad, i mocked him to much. still ! he said that aku curang dengan dia sebab aku ambik gambar dgn aiman fikri well, nak ja kata... hang curang dengan member hg, aku xkata pa pun ~ since, i know where is my place.. so, let him be happy . . . 

I'm blank... just go with the flow. . . be strong dearself... 3.8.2019, marked..  broke up with fitri for 7 months . tipu kalau cakap tak rindu. rindu. cuma, redha ..

why ... when everything 'back' as before ... i became nearly like before me.. but, there's slightly difference when i am more aware with my action than before... since i'm broke last night... mujur hari ini hari cuti... i lost my mood .. ya Allah...help me help me to go through all this.. guide me in study...make sure, i'm not lost from my study... i tried to distance myself from him... since woke up late for today ... i think it will take sometime for everything fall back into it places... i don't know why, tuhan bagaikan minta aku 'hang-on' dari membuat keputusan yang melulu pada hari ini... mungkin, sepedih-pedih hati aku mengharunginya... pedih lagi jiwa eseorang ang memerlukan bahu sekiranya aku terus pergi.. mungkin itu lebih penting ? itu kmbali rujuk kpad definisi masing-masing jua.. dalam kekecewa aku tengah menahan.. malam tadi, sempat call.. still, he still needs his bestfriend to comfort him before sleep.. even,...

the feeling when you could become a listener at first was kinda awesome & great. like, extremely, great. since day 1, when u looked at somebody that you kinda 'like' ypu could started to feel something. but, those something, you can't express it into words. indescriable but, Allah is Almighty He knows well.. He crossed the path of 2 persons for reasons.. i never imagined to get close with the one that when the 1st sight, i looked at him.. i have something.. i thought it was just for fun since i'm very cheeky.. when i turned 'back'.. i just could smile with speechlessly...😊 well... pada mulanya, sebelum keakraban itu tiba... aku cuma berfikir, 'oh, mungkin kali ini sahaja' jadi, aku cuba... akan tetapi, aku tewas dengan penghargaan yang beliau berikan... hari demi hari , keakraban itu kian utuh teguh beliau seolah memberikan sesuatu.. aku hampir lupa, beliau mempunyai seorang teman yakni bkan teman wanita bak sang kek...

gimme the higher strenght for me ya Allah... i'm confused... do take all these feeing back ya Allah...