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on the 30th of Dec 2019, on the pages of 364 of 2019, we went out for movie. we watched IP MAN 4 : the finale. hall 1, twin seat, A01 A02. i spent the whole day with him. i fetched him at KTM station at 10.33a.m then, we went to Aman Central. we had our breakfast at warung behind Aman Central. the place that i used to buy my breakfast during my part-time work before. our movie show at 1.00pm we hang out for hours until the clock turned 1.00pm. in the cinema, i never feel the loving moment just like hat had happened i there. we were cuddled to each other since the beginning of the movie till the end. he held me tightly. i could feel the warmness of him. extremely comfortable. i love that moment. so so bad. i'm in love ... T_T from time to time, he kept hold my hand. he played with all of my fingers. he bite each of my finger pamperedly. he hugged me so tight. he kissed every part of my head. cheeks & neck , not to forget . . . sometimes, my ...

2020 is coming very soon... i lost somebody in early of 2019 i met another soul nearby the end of the 2019, to be specific around july, 2019. as you know, at the very beginning, we were completely a friend. as the days goes by, the bond is getting extremely closer. . . day by day, we passed our days almost together. . we did everything all together . . almost. . . i admit that, whatever i tried to do something to him, i always believe, May in the future, there have somebody will do the same towards me with all of his heart. all the goods that i gave, May i receive it back in my future. with the right person. ya Allah, i knew that my meeting with him is not coincidently. all is well-planned by YOU. ya Allah, i asked for the strength for me to go through all of this pain, all the obstacles that you gave me. You'll not put me in this if this is beyond my ability ya Allah, if he not meant to be mine, i'm begging you, please let my 2020 will be the pain...

21.11.19 Midnight. . . the night that i never thought to happen, happened. lately, I'm having a dilemma... after prayer, i always prayed that, May Allah show me the right path.. May Allah guide me to the right decision. it was because, i don't wanna be a selfish. i just want to make a fair decision to everybody who got involved. it's freaking pain, like, seriously. but, i have to sacrifice it. May Allah grant me such a beautiful blessing in future, inshaAllah... Hisni did approached me. she asked me everything... i told her everything. . without fail. with a heavy heart. i'm grateful that Allah had answered my prayer. i'm touched that He accept my doa & i got His guidance. then, i truly learnt that. . . not all the one that we love, will be ours.. let them free & fly freedomly.. if he meant to be mine, he'll be... if not, i believe that, Allah will replace him with a better person... ya Allah, thank you for len...

day by day, everything went well.. lie if there's no downs at all.. life is full of, ups & downs, twists & turns, love & loss, tears & laughter... me & him. . we stay like that. . . may it has a beautiful endings... ya Allah, take care of my heart amin 

3 . 8 . 19 malam. KmK ada buat talk like that. not compulsory to all.. besides, adala foodtrucks ni just to menarik pengunjung maybe ? tapi, failed. orang gi makan ja sepah.. that's not what i want to share.. HE SCOLDED ME . terasa sampai tulang. tapi, i knew where my place it so.... diam je... my bad, i mocked him to much. still ! he said that aku curang dengan dia sebab aku ambik gambar dgn aiman fikri well, nak ja kata... hang curang dengan member hg, aku xkata pa pun ~ since, i know where is my place.. so, let him be happy . . . 

I'm blank... just go with the flow. . . be strong dearself... 3.8.2019, marked..  broke up with fitri for 7 months . tipu kalau cakap tak rindu. rindu. cuma, redha ..